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Sep. 1st, 2013 | 12:49 am
posted by: rosetearaway in o_c_d
So, my grandmother was hit by a car tonight. She is fine, however, I am home alone, and now feel a little like eating and purging. But I know that it is only my worries that make me even consider that. Concerns like, seeing the man I'm dating tomorrow, hanging up all my clothes in my bedroom, perhaps being a little tired on our busiest day since I am up so late writing this, sad about my grandma, thinking of how she must of felt, how scared and alone she may have felt with that happened to her, not actually having enough money for my rent, even though it is due tomorrow, and I am supposed to have a date with my boyfriend, but now if I am responsible, I should break our plans to go and try to sell my clothes to make enough money for rent.... As well as my plans with my best friend. Missing him. Wishing we were closer. Wondering if I pushed him away. Wondering what he thinks of me.
Was so sad yesterday that I seriously considered committing suicide. I even began to write my note, but then I walked home and fell asleep.
Well, I need to get my beauty sleep. xo
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