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Dec. 31st, 2011 | 12:20 am
mood: depresseddepressed
posted by: v_nighthawk in o_c_d

I'm not sure what exactly is going on.  I've been sleeping a lot, at least as much as I've been awake.  The only thing I can seem to bring myself to do is play video games and go to the same three websites. I tried working on my game project, and it felt like trudging through quicksand. It's a simple geometry problem to solve, align the camera with it's detection field, but beyond a few half-assed guesses, I can't bring myself to work on it.  Any ideas on how to get past this?

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Vigilante Nighthawk

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from: v_nighthawk
date: Dec. 31st, 2011 10:25 am (UTC)
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I doubt that would do any good. I'm currently going to a clinic to get my medication because I can't afford anything else. They don't know crap about OCD, and when I first went in, they told me that having intrusive sexual thoughts about my brother was a perfectly normal part of the coming out process. Needless to say, I don't trust them, and I'm frankly getting tired of the ignorance I've dealt with in general. I really wish coming out would solve this. I do. I wish I could be gay and that all this would evaporate. I really, honestly do. It would be much easier than having to explain what I'm going through. (BTW, to the jackass who subscribed to me finding this "interesting," I hope you are enjoying this. If you want to find out more about the subject, then google HOCD. I should NOT have to explain myself here of all places!)

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from: tryst_inn
date: Dec. 31st, 2011 05:22 pm (UTC)
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Re-think your perspective. Depression is very treatable and very well understood from a treatment process, though it can take time to find a treatment process that works for each client.

Intrusive sexual thoughts of an inappropriate nature are unfortunately somewhat 'normal' for some folks with OCD. As to whether its normal during coming out, I cannot say. I haven't seen that in the literature and its outside my personal experience.

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Vigilante Nighthawk

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from: v_nighthawk
date: Dec. 31st, 2011 06:27 pm (UTC)
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"As to whether its normal during coming out, I cannot say. I haven't seen that in the literature and its outside my personal experience. "

Let's just say that the gay affirming therapist I went to thought it was quite unusual for someone coming out, and she was fairly shocked that the other therapist thought it was normal.

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Vigilante Nighthawk

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from: v_nighthawk
date: Jan. 1st, 2012 08:15 am (UTC)
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Thanks for the support. Strangest thing happened, though. I'm feeling fine again? I also have a stomach ache. This seems to happen every time I get sick. Before the symptoms manifest, I become really depressed. Now, I'm sick, but I feel fine emotionally. I'm working again back at my normal pace. The same thing happens to my mother as well, though she only has GAD instead of OCD.

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