Is this how it's supposed to work?
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Nov. 27th, 2011 | 03:57 pm
posted by: v_nighthawk in o_c_d
As I've stated elsewhere, my current OCD theme is the fear that I'm really gay. Last night, I decide to hell with it, and accepted the thoughts and images in my head, agreed with them, and tried to hold the image in my head as long as I could. Initially, it scared the hell out of me, and I thought maybe I was gay. Instead of engaging in compulsions however, I let it go. Once I calmed down, however, the strangest thing happened. For the first time in a long time, I felt completely confident that I am in fact heterosexual. I realized the thoughts were nothing more than that, thoughts, and that the feelings were just anxiety and completely different from my attraction to women. Is this what is supposed to happen, or am did I just find a new compulsion?