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Sep. 1st, 2013 | 12:49 am
posted by: rosetearaway in o_c_d

So, my grandmother was hit by a car tonight. She is fine, however, I am home alone, and now feel a little like eating and purging. But I know that it is only my worries that make me even consider that. Concerns like, seeing the man I'm dating tomorrow, hanging up all my clothes in my bedroom, perhaps being a little tired on our busiest day since I am up so late writing this, sad about my grandma, thinking of how she must of felt, how scared and alone she may have felt with that happened to her, not actually having enough money for my rent, even though it is due tomorrow, and I am supposed to have a date with my boyfriend, but now if I am responsible, I should break our plans to go and try to sell my clothes to make enough money for rent.... As well as my plans with my best friend. Missing him. Wishing we were closer. Wondering if I pushed him away. Wondering what he thinks of me.

Was so sad yesterday that I seriously considered committing suicide. I even began to write my note, but then I walked home and fell asleep.

Well, I need to get my beauty sleep. xo

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Jul. 7th, 2012 | 11:28 pm
posted by: sammiesuicide in o_c_d

Hello I've never posted here before I'm Sammie
My ocd used to be bad not too bad but I'd spend quite a few minutes flipping on and off a light switch, and turning on and off taps, washing my hands every minute I got therapy and medication and it got better, but the medications they put me on made me depressed so I am off them I seem to be okay, maybe getting a bit worse, but the intrusive thoughts are really bad, I can't relax they are always there, and I start freaking out, I don't know how to deal with them.
Also I don't know if it has to do with ocd, but can it cause delusions?
I don't see my psych till the 23rd I think. I just hope I remember to tell him about this.

xoxo
Sammie

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Happy New Year.

Jan. 1st, 2012 | 07:56 pm
posted by: v_nighthawk in o_c_d

This, of course, is the obligatory Happy New Year post.  May we all have a great year and put our OCD out of misery. XD

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Dealing with depression?

Dec. 31st, 2011 | 12:20 am
mood: depresseddepressed
posted by: v_nighthawk in o_c_d

I'm not sure what exactly is going on.  I've been sleeping a lot, at least as much as I've been awake.  The only thing I can seem to bring myself to do is play video games and go to the same three websites. I tried working on my game project, and it felt like trudging through quicksand. It's a simple geometry problem to solve, align the camera with it's detection field, but beyond a few half-assed guesses, I can't bring myself to work on it.  Any ideas on how to get past this?

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Is this how it's supposed to work?

Nov. 27th, 2011 | 03:57 pm
mood: confusedconfused
posted by: v_nighthawk in o_c_d

As I've stated elsewhere, my current OCD theme is the fear that I'm really gay.  Last night, I decide to hell with it, and accepted the thoughts and images in my head, agreed with them, and tried to hold the image in my head as long as I could. Initially, it scared the hell out of me, and I thought maybe I was gay.  Instead of engaging in compulsions however, I let it go.  Once I calmed down, however, the strangest thing happened.  For the first time in a long time, I felt completely confident that I am in fact heterosexual.  I realized the thoughts were nothing more than that, thoughts, and that the feelings were just anxiety and completely different from my attraction to women.  Is this what is supposed to happen, or am did I just find a new compulsion?

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Is H-OCD fake?

Oct. 28th, 2011 | 05:44 am
posted by: v_nighthawk in o_c_d

I know I should take this with a grain of a salt, but a therapist on a gay help forum said the H-OCD is fake, that's it's something being promoted by a small group of people.  He said it's not mentioned in the DSM-IV and that there is no scientific evidence to back it up?  Have I been had?  I've never have overt compulsions like hand washing, counting things, or arranging things.  I've always had weird fears.  If I don't have OCD, then what's really wrong with me?  Am I a repressed homosexual, and is this why I've been nuts for all these years?

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Family and OCD

Sep. 16th, 2011 | 11:49 pm
mood: blahblah
posted by: hellokittyerin in o_c_d

Has anyone else had problems with family members not understanding OCD? My parents always tell me to "stop obsessing". I tend to go on and on about things for days, weeks, or even months. I have problems with obsessive thoughts all the time and feel that I need to tell them to people. They know I've been diagnosed with OCD and I've told them that I'm not doing what I do on purpose or to upset anyone. They tell me I need to keep these things to myself, but I find that very difficult.

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effexor

Sep. 15th, 2011 | 07:17 pm
posted by: taza_rota in o_c_d

i've been on luvox (300 mg) for a year or so, and while it's helped, my psychiatrist suggested we give something else a try just to see if it works better. so i'm switching to effexor (venlafaxine), which is an SNRI rather than an SSRI.

just wondering if any of you guys had any experiences with effexor (good or bad) that you could share with me. i was originally on zoloft and am now tapering off luvox in order to switch over to the effexor, so experiences as compared to those two drugs in particular would be much appreciated. side effects, effectiveness against OCD, blah blah blah, any info would be great.

thanks!

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Paxil Weight gain update -- omega 3 seems to counteract it

Sep. 13th, 2011 | 11:32 am
mood: bouncybouncy
posted by: v_nighthawk in o_c_d

I thought I would pass this on as it seems to have helped.  About a week and a half ago, I started taking Omega 3 fatty acid tablets in the hope that it would counteract my weight gain.  I haven't changed any of my other habits, but I appear to have lost  5 pounds so far. There doesn't appear to be any negative side effects either.  The only thing I would recommend, however, is taking the omega 3 at a different time than your medication.  If taken at the same time, the omega 3 can block the absorption of other medications. I take my paxil in the morning and the omega 3 at night.

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OCD and noise sensitivity

Aug. 25th, 2011 | 07:16 pm
posted by: lexie0478 in o_c_d

Hi everyone!

Does anyone here have a sensitivity to noise and if so, does this have anything to do with OCD?

I get extremely angry if someone sneezes loudly. To the point where I could hit them... (I don't, by the way :o)) I also hate it when people make loud noises when they're yawning.

Random sudden noises also make me very cross, and whistling puts knots in my stomach...

To name but few things... Other than that I'm quite chilled out, believe it or not!

Like my obsessions and compulsions, this gets worse when I'm stressed and is always there to some extent...I'd be really interested to hear if other people get like this?

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